Tired of Pandemic and Trump Fatigue

by on September 23, 2020 · 11 comments

in Ocean Beach

I woke up this morning in a funk. Maybe it was the subconscious acknowledging Ruth Bader Ginsberg’s death, and how Donald and Mitch were plotting to replace her before the poor woman’s body was even cold, and how it looks likely that they will force someone onto the Supreme Court that will undo everything RBG did.

Or maybe I’m just funky because of pandemic fatigue. Tired of being isolated; tired of staying at home, not being able to non-restrictively hug family members and good friends and visit them in their actual homes. I’m tired of not being able to fully play with my grandchildren. I’m tired of having to walk on the other side of the sidewalk or street when passing strangers.

But I’m also real tired of the anti-maskers, the people who refuse to wear masks or practice social distancing. Did you know some of them started to clamor to have businesses open up way back in April? April!

I’m tired of people burning masks; I’m tired of the people like the guy who punched that Pacific Beach restaurant manager and broke his nose just because he was asked to wear a mask. I’m really tired of driving or bicycling around Ocean Beach and seeing so many people without masks. Or the people who wear masks – just over their mouth, not their nose.

I wonder if the anti-maskers – if they had lived during World War II – would have protested against having nightly black-outs and having to have their window shades drawn as people were forced to here in San Diego – for years? During the entire war – even though not a shot from our San Diego shore batteries was ever fired in anger.

I’m tired of the people who want to recall Governor Newsom. And especially tired of the people who threaten our public health officials for warning us of the dangers of COVID. And cause them even to resign.

I’m tired of being tired. I’m tired of the pandemic fatigue. But you won’t see me shaking my stick to have everything open. I haven’t eaten inside a restaurant for six months. When I see people eating outside at restaurants just a few feet from other strangers eating outside, I cringe.

Perhaps my subconscious is just tired of the national denial of the pandemic. Now that we’ve reached 200,000 American deaths and Trump says he’s doing such a great job, I’m just tired of his denials and lies and his criminal negligence and traitorous behavior. Try rolling the number 200,000 around on your tongue for a moment. That’s more dead Americans than most of our wars. I’m tired of the virus hitting our Latino and Black communities hardest, of the virus killing first responders, nurses and doctors. I’m tired of the virus emptying out nursing homes.

I’m tired of the lack of national leadership on this pandemic – that is still very much with us. I guess I’m just tired of Trump fatigue. I’m fatigued with Trump and I’m tired of it. I’m tired of Trump and some of his base, the QAnon supporters, the armed-to-the-teeth right-wing militias who want to start a second civil war.

I’m tired of Trump and his acolytes pumping up hatred, racism and white-supremacy; I’m tired of cops killing Black people, and Brown people. I’m tired of cops treating people in their communities as suspects and criminals without them doing anything. I’m tired of seeing young people – of all groups – having to go into the streets and face clubs and teargas and flash-bangs just to fight for the rights that all of us are supposed to already have.

I’m tired of how badly Trump has wrecked our nation. Tired of his climate emergency denial. It makes me deeply saddened to know it may take generations to undo what he has caused. I’m tired and I’m sad. Yet, I’m also angry – angry at how many of our leaders have enabled Trump and Trumpism. I’m angry that the grandchildren I can’t fully hug will be dealing with the Trumpism wrecking ball for years.

I’m angry enough that I have to speak out – share my fatigue, yes – but angry enough to raise my puny voice to counter the fatigue, the tiredness, but also the treason.

There will come a day when the wrecking ball will be held accountable, when enough Americans who share my fatigue and anger exercise democracy, who remember the darkest hour is just before the dawn.

 

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Avatar Patty Jones September 23, 2020 at 11:21 am

And yet, we keep on keeping on. Love you, Frankly.

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Avatar retired botanist September 23, 2020 at 6:09 pm

Yep, I’ll second that, and thx Frank for communicating what so many of us are feeling right now. If people, as below (per Chris), are tired of our ‘fatigue’… quitting facebook, twitter etc are not the solutions.
I don’t have accounts on any social media, but I do follow major news outlets; like most responsible citizens do, so I have to be tuned into the pulse of the nation. We are on a fragile precipice of democracy; this pales to the national challenges and activism of the anti-Vietnam war movement, and for those of us who CARE, there seems NO agency right now; CDC, DOJ, FDA, HHS, CIA, FBI, EPA, SCOTUS that isn’t tainted by the slow, infective crawl of this administration. Other than voting, clearly ESSENTIAL, we can only turn our attention to the greater challenges that are out there; like forest fires, fracking, homelessness, and other “NON Bitch McConnell, Lindsay Graham, Rand Paul, Senate GOP sound bytes” that siphon off our attention.
For me, when I can’t tolerate the depression and anxiety of our domestic demise, I “LEAN OUT” to concentrate on global issues of the greater good. May you find some solace in same. :)

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Avatar Chris September 23, 2020 at 12:59 pm

I’m tired of all this stuff too but ironically I get an earful from some of the people in my building where I work of how tired they are of people like us. We are truly divided and will probably stay that way for a long long time.

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Avatar Sam September 23, 2020 at 2:56 pm

I’m tired of all of this too. I think the real problem here is editorialized “news” and social media. We really need to quit Facebook, Twitter and the like. Perhaps the OB Town Council can lead by example and stop using Facebook Live for the monthly meetings. We have to start somewhere…

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Avatar Frances O'Neill Zimmerman September 23, 2020 at 8:28 pm

No kidding, EditiorDude, it is a drag, a total drag. Last night I wrote a little poem about every memory I have of Christmas gifts gone wrong — where did that come from, if not the sick-and-tired-of-Trump subconscious? Today, a friend stuck in a retirement home invited me to call around on behalf of those who wish the GOP wouldn’t replace RBG with that scary right-wing smiley woman (who’s not even a Cubana.) I told her, do you like pushing rocks up a hill? That’s a waste of time. So many reasons to be discouraged.

But you run this great little feisty newspaper, there is love and loyalty, and many will vote on November 3 including my granddaughter who is 18 years old and was a life-saving San Diego Lifeguard all summer. Amazing. I was on a Zoom last night with a bunch of young people who are working to get the Harvard Corporation to divest from fossil fuels and they are actually making headway. Amazing. So let’s keep on keeping on. Save the coastal zone 30-foot height- limit and vote No on Prop E and Yes on Biden and Barbara Bry!

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Avatar Eric September 23, 2020 at 8:42 pm

I agree w Sam. Why is our OBTC using Facebook? We all know Facebook just pimps us all out.

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Avatar Frank J September 26, 2020 at 3:50 pm

Concur. Concur. Concur. And I might throw in a comment about the attacks on the beloved US Postal Service. Two things I cannot tire of. The effort made by movetoamend.org , which addresses the deepest roots of how we got to this point, money and greed. And your prose and rhetoric, Mr. Gormlie.
Thank you.

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Avatar Angie September 26, 2020 at 11:12 pm

Thank you for writing everything I’m too tired to write again. My autistic grandson that I coparent with my daughter, a nurse has been stuck at home over 6 months because people want to party. His school, a small non-public autism school is opening on a hybrid model this Monday. Distance learning doesn’t work for him and speech and OT don’t work over Zoom either. But because of SDSU and the deniers his school may have to close down again on Tuesday.

And I feel like just erasing this whole comment because it doesn’t help anything. I’ll vote, I’ll wear my mask and I’ll stay home. And I’ll keep my fingers crossed that we stay in the red tier.

Thank you for all you do!

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Avatar Suzy September 27, 2020 at 9:24 am

Thank you Frank, for your words and for expressing how so many of us feel!

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Avatar Linda T September 27, 2020 at 11:08 pm

Thanks Frank. You express many of the feelings I have too. Tied, angry, frustrated, but I have found some relief from students I once had who are in the streets protesting while I can’t, others writing fantastic pieces to keep me more balanced. Thank you for you piece. I enjoyed it.

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Avatar Laura September 28, 2020 at 1:56 pm

Thank you, Frank! You said it so well! We are all so weary and so ready to have this all behind us. Just for a century-old perspective, Google the words: anti-maskers, San Francisco. At least in San Fran they put them in jail!! It’s an interesting read, although it makes me wonder: why haven’t we learned this in 100 years? I could comment, but I will spare your readers!

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